im about to be on the street
You all know I hate talking about my shit on the internet.. but I don’t think I have any other choice at this point.
TLDR: my name is Iz, I’m a mentally ill gay trans guy and I am going to be kicked out of my abusive home as soon as I turn 18 in December and they can make me leave. Right now, I have no way of surviving on my own.
I remade recently after my parents found my old blog. I had been trying before to keep things as calm as possible between me and my parents but after they found out I was still gay they decided to kick me out. My parents are extremely religious and intolerant. They are paranoid about me leaving the house, my mom believes that my mental illnesses stem from demon possession and that I’m evil, I have gotten into fights with both her and my father because they have put their hands on me. They’ve put me in mental hospitals just to punish me. They monitor me and look through my things, break my things, take my door, wont let me leave the house, ect. They talk about me like I’m the devil and an abomination. They have done so much shit that I cant even remember at this point. My house is hostile and only its getting worse as I get older. Im not allowed to see an actual therapist anymore because they don’t believe any of them are actually “helping me”. They threaten getting me into anti gay therapy and believe that I am a lesbian and that I am delusional and many other things about me that aren’t true. My mental health is getting worse because of lack of treatment, I have no therapist to help me through my trauma, my mom controls my medicine and many times will refuse to give it to me. It is making my life a living hell to stay here every day constantly being screamed at, threatened, treated like shit and abused and I will have nowhere to go. All of my family has shunned me. The few friends I have live hours away. A plane ticket would cost upwards of 300 dollars. I would rather kill myself than live on the street or in a shelter as a gay trans man. I can’t make myself appear as a girl because of the way I look and people already know me here. There is no support in my town for trans people and I am terrified and paranoid to be out there alone especially with the anti trans hate I see going around because of Trump. I would try to work but in the past no one has even wanted to hire me because of the way I look. I live in an extremely conservative area and on top of that I’m disabled, and I have been waiting to see if I can get on disability.
ANYTHING, ANYTHING HELPS! I CANT LIVE ON THE STREET AND I CANT LIVE HERE. IM TERRIFIED AND I WANT TO GET TO A FRIENDS HOUSE OR AT LEAST AFFORD A HOTEL AND FOOD OR TO RENT A ROOM HERE WHILE I WAIT FOR MY SSI APPLICATION TO GO THROUGH. I only have until next month but I will try to save as long as possible.. Im trying to sell my things without my parents noticing.
My paypal is: paypal.me/vaguebf or the email is izzybreathesfire@gmail.com (old email) whichever works better. Please reblog this post and spread it around, I have no one to help me and I need to get the fuck out of here and get help.
@thebibliosphere can you boost this Please?
Can do, you might also consider submitting your post to @copperbadge ’s Radio Free Monday (read their blog description, it’s a simple link submission). You might also consider getting Child Protective Services involved, as you are still under 18 and what you are enduring is abuse. If nothing else they might have resources for you to scope out and get yourself to safety.
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