missvoltairine:

it has been like at least eight years and sometimes I still think to myself, when I am tired, “but I am le tired… well then take a nap! AND THEN FIRE ZE MISSILES” even though in retrospect that is like one of the most embarrassingly unfunny videos to ever come out of the internet 

letters-to-lgbt-kids:

My dear lgbt+ kids,

If you’re the kind of person who wants to change the world, wants to do something meaningful, then you probably experienced the frustration before that comes with the thought that you’re failing at that.

It’s so easy to feel like a failure. Changing the world is a big and noble goal – and such a vague one. It can feel like you’d need lots of power or money or even the ability to perform miracles for that. If you don’t have any of that, can you even do something meaningful at all?

If you ever struggle with such worries, I want to tell you something:

You are already changing peoples lives, here and now. Without even knowing it.

Of course people with power and money can do big things, I’m not denying that. But you don’t need to be president for your actions to affect other people.

You make people smile. You make people feel listened to and cared for. You make someone’s day a little bit brighter. You make a dog wag their tail. You may even save someone’s life.

And if you read this and think “But I don’t”, then that’s because it’s not a big extraordinary thing for you to do. You just do that by being alive, by going through your usual day to day routine. You smile at a stranger or you reblog a funny pun or you send a good morning text or you hug your friend or hey, you pet your dog. Without even knowing it, you just made the world a tiny, tiny bit happier.

It matters. You matter.

With all my love,
Your Tumblr Mom

Short-Distance Relationship

grantairelibere:

Okay just because I’m really weak for this trope: Grantaire and Enjolras who, as children, lived and grew up in two different apartment complexes with balconies that face each other–those ones that are so close together you could hypothetically jump from one to the other if you tried hard enough. 

The first time they saw each other, a 7-year-old Enjolras was just out to water the plants, and spotted 6-year-old Grantaire lying flat on his back on the balcony opposite, staring blankly at the sky. Enjolras thought he was unconscious. He swung the watering can with all that little 7-year-old strength, and splashed water all over him just like he’d seen in the movies. Grantaire, who was actually awake, was ready to be angry but took one look at Enjolras and instead blurted: “Do you want to be friends?” 

Enjolras laughed at him for it. It was the beginning of–well, something.

They talked a lot across the balconies. Enjolras went to some private school across the city. Grantaire went to primary down the road. They’d come home from school and waste time until dinner talking about anything–their friends, their parents, their favourite games. Twice Enjolras brought Courfeyrac and Combeferre up to the balcony to meet Grantaire. Both times, they’d all stayed out so late they almost missed dinner.

When Grantarie was 8, he told Enjolras he’d never been outside Paris. When Enjolras was 9, he told Grantaire how much he loved history. When Grantaire was 10, after endless pestering, he showed Enjolras some stuff he’d drawn. When Enjolras was 11, he confessed to Grantaire he felt like a boy. When Enjolras was 11 and 1 day, Grantaire balled up and threw him three old shirts he’d outgrown. As it turned out, Enjolras looked quite nice in red shirts. 

When Grantaire was 12, he discovered to his horror that he really liked Enjolras.

Enjolras, who, by the age of 13 discovered he really liked Grantaire, started trying to use homework as an excuse to spend more time with him out on the balcony, before it became clear that Grantaire already knew everything. No matter what Enjolras asked, Grantaire had the answer. Not that he’d be serious about it, of course. Grantaire didn’t seem to care what he knew. He just liked knowing. Enjolras stopped using the homework as an excuse.

Grantaire loved to hear Enjolras talk. It’s the reason he never answered Enjolras’ questions seriously. It meant Enjolras would stay out later, that he would talk more. Enjolras sounded so passionate when he spoke, especially when he found something he was interested in. French laws, for example, something so boring to most of the rest of the world. He could go on about them for hours without Grantaire saying a word. Grantaire was content to listen to him do it.

When Enjolras found out that his parents intended to send him to an all-girls private high school, Enjolras came out to them then and there. He was not a girl, he refused to be separated from his friends at school, and he no longer wanted to study in some elite institution. His parents didn’t take it well. They sent him to live with a relative elsewhere in France. Enjolras had no warning the morning his aunt picked him up, and when he ran to the balcony and called out for Grantaire, he didn’t answer. 

Enjolras didn’t have the chance to come back to Paris until a few months later. He went immediately to Grantaire’s building and asked which unit the family lived in. He was told by a neighbour they had moved out. 

The two of them had no way to contact each other. With such a short-distance relationship, they never thought they’d need it. 

It occured to Enjolras, out of nowhere, that he and Grantaire had been literally three meters apart for years, but had never even touched. 

——

Enjolras moved into the new flat with Combeferre when he was 23. They’d just graduated uni, Ferre with accolades and Enjolras with suspension warnings from half of his profs. They were still resolved to lead the ABC, a job made a bit more complicated between looking for meaningful work and finally drafting a proper mission statement. 

They were exhausted after their day of unpacking, and Enjolras had finally taken a moment to rest on the balcony with some well-deserved coffee. Combeferre had just gone back inside for his own second cup. Enjolras observed the new view–a couple levels above the street, across from an identical building to their own. Not nearly reaching distance to the balcony across, he mused. 

He heard the door on the balcony beside him slide open, and his new neighbour take his seat on an overturned bin. Enjolras watched the man out of the corner of his eye–he wore pyjamas, had dark messy hair, and clutched a mug in both hands. The neighbour noticed him staring. Enjolras quickly looked away. 

“Hi,” the neighbour said. “You’re the new one, huh?”

“Yeah, just moved in.” He turned to look at the man. “I’m–R??

Because that’s who it was, sitting on a bin on the balcony right beside his, sipping whatever was in the mug with raised eyebrows. 

Grantaire looked at him with vague amusement. “That’s a coincidence, I’m R too,” he said.

Oh–of course he wouldn’t recognize him. Stubble and a deeper voice tends to do that to a person. Enjolras felt a bubble rise in his chest.

“Do you mind if we do this in the hallway? It’s easier than yelling outside,” he said. A lie, of course. He did plenty of yelling outside.

“Sure.” Grantaire shrugged. “Meet you in a minute.”

Grantaire stood up and slid inside, and Enjolras all but bolted to the front door, past a startled Combeferre, and into the hallway. Grantaire emerged a moment later. 

He extended a hand. “Grantaire,” he said, and Enjolras felt almost giddy. 

Enjolras took his hand. “Nice to see you again,” he said. “I’m Enjolras.” 

letters-to-lgbt-kids:

My dear lgbt+ kids,

A big hug to all of you who have to deal with “Maybe it’ll go away if…” suggestions.

Your identity is not a illness. It doesn’t need a cure. There’s nothing wrong with you, no need to fix you.

And yet, some people come up with ideas how to fix something that was never broken in the first place.

I’m not only talking about people who believe a self-proclaimed healer could “pray the gay away” and similar things (though those people still exist and that’s horrifying) – the people around you may even know that it’s scientifically proven that such cures do not work and still come up with their own suggestions… which are nothing but cures by another name.

One example for this would be “Maybe you just need more female friends? I think you just convinced yourself you’re a lesbian because you feel lonely, it’ll go away when you find a female best friend.” (Yes, this example is taken from personal experience).

Trans or nonbinary people often hear mental health related “advice”, like “Maybe you should get tested for schizophrenia?” (been there, heard that).

For some of us, it’s easy to see that these suggestions are ridiculous – they are! But for others, they can be a big source of insecurity or doubt, even self-hatred.

Please know that your identity is not a flaw. It’s not necessarily “caused” by anything and it certainly doesn’t need to go away – it’s just part of who you are. A normal, healthy, good part.

With all my love,
Your Tumblr Mom

penfairy:

penfairy:

Imagine if you were a Christian medieval person from a small village and you had a feud with your neighbour… how annoying would it be to see them in church every Sunday? Not only are you obliged to be in the same space with them every week but you’d have to watch them receive the sacrament and have their sins forgiven even though you know damn well they don’t deserve it… and on top of that you get the priest preaching “love thy neighbour” from the pulpit, I think the fuck not, I’ll not love an unneighbourly misbegotten churl such as he, preach though thou might, father

I think I just got possessed by the ghost of a man who’s still really upset about his neighbour’s pigs eating his cabbages