Tag: about me

yardsards:

any other aroaces have a Weird relationship w gender, esp womanhood?

like ik mine’s already extra complicated bc im nonbinary (like idk im simultaneously part woman and absolutely not a woman at all. and also ive had years of thinking i was a woman and still get called one?).

but even (at least i think) unrelated to that, i’ve always felt weird about looking “girly” because i didn’t want men to look at me as romantically/sexually. so i’d dress masc to try and make me not seem available to them (and also to fit my gender identity- two birds one stone). or i’d go a brand of cutesy but very non-conventionally-attractive girly when i was too nervous to dress masc

like kinda vaguely related to how i’ve heard some butches describe their relationship to womanhood (but not exactly!!! bc theirs involves not only not being interested in men but ALSO being interested in women instead. and that second part adds a whole new note to their experience which i dont experience personally and will not claim to). bc of how much womanhood is related to being available to men (and also being unavailable to women. but, yknow, that part doesn’t quite apply to me)

idk im rambling and should probably go to bed

turing-tested:

there is a little cowboy in my head that controls my actions. when he gets excited he roots and toots a little and that makes me happy. when he is sad, he sits all lonesomely and thinks about anna may and if she’s getting a long aright without him. that is how my brain works, thank you for coming to my ted talk